Chapter 1320: 1320. Chapter 1320 Indulgent Night 1

1320. Chapter 1320 Indulgent Night 1

Is it just because, in his heart, I am a casual woman?

Although I was utterly unwilling in my heart to step again into that home he spoke of, I still quietly leaned in his embrace and was carried up by him.

I told myself that because I had drunk today, I could let myself be unrestrained once; I had drunk, my mind was fuzzy, so I could let myself go crazy once.

Because I miss him, really miss him, let me indulge myself properly tonight.

Closing my eyes, I leaned into Shangguan Yun's embrace, extending my slender arms to wrap around his neck……

I could quietly feel Shangguan Yun's heartbeat, his breathing……

Everything is so familiar; I feel my mind becoming less and less clear, less and less clear……

Opening my eyes, all I see before me is that handsome face that makes my heart ache; every feature makes me yearn and dream of him, constantly thinking of him, appearing in my dreams each time—but his words, "slut," "get lost," make my heart feel as if cut by a knife; each time I wake up crying in my dreams, those words are so true, so piercing, each syllable stabbing my heart, so painful, so painful, truly painful, each time the pain makes me unable to breathe, then I startle awake in the dream, or perhaps in the dream I always dream that my heart is pierced by those words until my whole body is bloody, as if blood flows like a river……

Every part of my body would bleed out, then I would be startled awake by that fear and terror.

Each time I wake up, I can no longer fall asleep; in my heart, in my mind, even before my eyes are Shangguan Yun's familiar yet strange face—I think of when he is angry, when he is furious, when he gently smiles at me, when he is happy, when he is jealous, when he kisses me, when I kiss him, his happy expression, when he blames me, when he……

Everything about him makes me think of heartache, exhausted……

But what use is it? What use is it?