Chapter 157: 157. Chapter 157 The Painful Truth 6

157. Chapter 157 The Painful Truth 6

Suddenly I became afraid of dying; I feared that if I died I would never see you again, so during that time I insisted on staying at school, because staying at school at least let me see you—just watching you from afar was enough. I don't know how much time I have left to live; each time I would sneak to a spot not far from the entrance of your dorm building and watch you, though a few times you still noticed me. Then I would pretend not to notice, act indifferent, deliberately avoid looking at you. But every time you walked away, I would stare at your back, never able to get enough.

Watching you grow thinner day by day, more exhausted each day, my heart truly ached; I wished I could continue to care for you—when you didn't want to eat, I would drag you to get something to eat, if you wore too little I could put my jacket on you. Later I chose treatment; no matter what, for your sake I must live on well, even if there's only a one percent chance, I will try.

That is why I will leave school.

I stayed in the hospital for a while; chemotherapy was the most painful period, but whenever I thought of you I could endure. I had been waiting, waiting for a suitable bone marrow match for me. At that time the school was about to go on vacation, I asked my family to let me leave the hospital for a walk—I just wanted to see you. They initially refused, but after my resistance they reluctantly agreed to let me go out briefly.

At that time Huiqing told me you were already at the station; to let me see you once, Huiqing promised to keep you from boarding the train. When I arrived at the station, indeed you were still chatting with Huiqing, your face carrying a faint sorrow, and I could no longer see the bright smile you used to have. Only when it was time and you left did I return.

Huiqing knew all of this; from then on, staying in the hospital, I became more attentive in following the doctors' arrangements and accepting the treatment they scheduled for me.

Until the second half of last year, the doctor told me a suitable bone marrow had been found—do you know how happy I was? Then I again asked my family to let me leave the hospital for a trip; I wanted to find you, to see you. Although I was still in the hospital, my heart constantly yearned for you.

But when I arrived at school, Huiqing told me you had already left, gone back.

I had no choice but to return to the hospital, disappointed.

PS: It's not convenient to split here, so I'll upload it all at once.

I'll split it into two chapters.