Chapter 196: 196. Chapter 196 Heartbreak 11

196. Chapter 196 Heartbreak 11

"Xuanxuan, hear me out, okay? It's not what you think; I have nothing with her, and her child isn't mine." Shangguan Yun said nervously and excitedly; just as he finished speaking, the class bell rang. Shangguan Yun had no choice but to leave like that.

I had thought Shangguan Yun was a responsible man, but I never expected him to deny it. To make a mistake and then shirk responsibility—it's truly cold-hearted. I've always looked down on such men, yet now my boyfriend turns out to be one of them. My heart feels utterly chilled.

Tears kept falling; I slumped over the desk, sobbing silently, unable to control my cries. No matter how Lili comforted me, I couldn't stop, as if I'd returned to the time right after Haohua and I broke up. I know this is useless, just crying, even though I've already lost him—no matter how much I weep or how heartbroken I feel, it's still a loss, and he'll never come back.

My heart now feels exactly as it did when Haohua and I first broke up—like a knife cutting, like a knife twisting, the pain is intensely strong.

After an evening self-study session, I had practically spent it crying. When class finally ended, I walked out of the classroom with my eyes red and swollen; soon Shangguan Yun caught up, grabbed my hand, and said, "Please let me explain." I didn't speak, weakly staring at him with my red, swollen eyes, icy and devoid of feeling; one could see his eyes held pity, but I couldn't understand why, if he pitied me, he would hurt me this way—if he loved me, why would he hurt me?

Finally I weakly said, "Let go of me." After saying that, I jerked my hand free and walked away. This time Shangguan Yun didn't chase after me, nor did I hope he would; perhaps he's grown tired, or maybe our relationship has reached its end.

After returning to the dormitory and washing up, I got into bed to sleep, but as soon as I lay down, tears began to fall uncontrollably; I sobbed silently, my stomach aching from crying, yet I couldn't stop. The more I tried to stop, the less I could.

My phone rang repeatedly, but I ignored it, knowing it was Shangguan Yun calling. In the end Lili answered for me, her voice full of pity, saying, "She's still crying." I don't know what expression he had when he spoke; presumably he was looking at me.