Chapter 197: 197. Chapter 197 Unwilling to Lose 1

197. Chapter 197 Unwilling to Lose 1

Later she said a few more words before returning my phone and placing it on my bed, then she pushed me and said, "Xuanxuan, don't cry; Shangguan Yun shouldn't be that kind of person—if he did something, he'd admit it; maybe you really misunderstood him."

Lili's words couldn't ease the pain in my heart; I kept crying, and finally Lili crawled into my blanket and hugged me, I curled up in her embrace—although her embrace wasn't as wide and warm as Shangguan Yun's, it still let me find a little warmth. I don't know when I fell asleep from crying; maybe I was cried out, had no strength left.

The next day I woke up with swollen red eyes; as I left the dormitory I could still see Shangguan Yun, and before he could speak I coldly told him, "These few days you'd better not come looking for me."

"Then don't cry anymore; seeing you like this hurts me, take good care of your health—I'll come find you in a few days." After saying that he left; watching his forlorn figure, my heart was suddenly struck by something, feeling some pain.

After Shangguan Yun left, I walked alone with a feeling of ending, walking slowly, and suddenly I had no appetite for breakfast; passing the cafeteria entrance I felt something—before, we always went in together, I would find a seat and sit quietly while he bought breakfast for me; gradually it became a habit, and the scenes of the two of us sitting inside kept flashing in my mind, impossible to shake, my heart ached again heavily, and I quickly walked back to the classroom.

Maybe everything forms a habit; usually at this time I would have breakfast with Shangguan Yun in the cafeteria, but now I sit in the classroom, my stomach seems to protest with gurgling noises, yet I have no desire to eat.

I sat there dazedly recalling the bits and pieces of being with Shangguan Yun—there was sorrow and sweetness; although we used to quarrel and get angry, now the situation is different from before, I'm too lazy to lose my temper. It can't be described as anger; it should be heartache and sorrow.