Chapter 199: Unwilling to Lose 3

As usual in the evening, I still had no appetite, so I simply didn't go to the cafeteria for dinner, returned alone to the dorm, and surprisingly my stomach didn't feel hungry—perhaps I was overly hungry. Afraid my body couldn't take it, I took out an apple to eat; this apple was the one Shangguan Yun bought for me last time, he bought too many and hadn't finished them last week.

The apple was originally delicious, but now biting it in my mouth it became so bitter and astringent; the apple is like love—sour and sweet—but now eating it in my mouth I feel no sweetness.

After forcing myself to finish the apple and then drinking a cup of hot water, Lili came back, as usual bringing back a bowl of noodles. Lili helplessly said: 'I told him already, but he still bought it and had me bring it to you. He said if you keep not eating meals, he'll buy you three meals a day every day.'

I smiled at Lili, somewhat helplessly saying: 'Whatever he wants, then; when I have an appetite I'll eat.'

In the evening I didn't want to go to evening self-study, so I pretended to be sick and got a leave slip from the homeroom teacher; Lili also stayed with me in the dorm and didn't go to class.

Now it's class time, the dorm lights are off, pitch dark, but the hallway lights are on, and the teaching building across the way is brightly lit, making the dorm building not so dark either.

"Xuanxuan, are you hungry?" Lili asked while lying on the same bed with me.

I gave a bitter laugh and said: 'I feel nothing now. Lili, do you think I'm foolish? Perhaps I'm too obsessed with love, unable to tolerate even a speck of sand in my feelings. I wish my love were pure and transparent like crystal, but I realize I was wrong—my feelings with Haohua just slipped away like that, and now my feelings with Shangguan Yun still can't be pure and transparent.'

"I always thought Tingting liked Shangguan Yun a lot; she thinks her family background is better than yours and she's prettier, but Shangguan Yun happened to like you instead, and he ignores the guy who comes to her door, so she wants revenge—maybe this is just a trap Tingting set. Are you willing to let her steal your feelings like this?" Lili said, advising me from the side.